This is going to be a bit of a stream of consciousness, where I just write what I'm thinking and see what comes out.
It's early in the morning and the alarm wakes me up. Unfortunately, it's a Monday. Another week in the never-ending year, to go to my never-ending job. But at least I have a job. At least I make some money that I'm able to save up for my things. Things that are exciting and yet to come. Maybe next year will be better. Maybe not. Let's not think about that.
I wonder what kind of day I'll have. Hopefully it's easier than most days, but you never know at my job. 4:45 seems like an eternity away, ugh. Customer service is exhausting. Why are people always so angry when they don't understand something?
I should probably get dressed....but the bed is so comfortable and the outside is so cold. I wonder when my next free day is to just stay in bed all day and do nothing. I know I did that yesterday, but the days never seem to last enough. I just want to create, sit down and make a creative. Have a creative eureka! But I usually get home so exhausted from the day, I don't have the energy. I haven't read in so long. By the time I read a page, my eyes are closing. How could I read a whole book in a day when I was in middle school and high school? Wasn't I tired then?
I look at the clock and see the time keep turning. It's now 7 am. I have an hour and a half to get to work. Plenty of time. But knowing me, I'll keep thinking I have plenty of time until I run out of time and am barely making it to work. Why is starting the day so hard? I know why, it's because I don't want to start the day.
But I have to. And so do you. One day at a time. We can take it one day at a time. Don't think about the fact that it's Monday, becaude the rest of the week will seem overwhelming. Just think of the next 8 hours of work. Or if that's too overwhelming too, just handle the next hour. We gotta survive this somehow.
If this all seems like a lot, this was written in real time. It's why I can't go back to sleep if I wake up earlier than I'm supposed to. Anyone else have an overactive brain that won't shut up?